New House, Live in Nanny and a Maid Anyone?

I receive this magazine. Triplet Connection. I read supportive stories about other triplet families that are just getting by with their live in nannies and maids. I read about how families had their in laws live with them for years, or how they sold their house and moved in with their family for help. One family in particular, they had 3 year old twins and a set of newborn triplets. Sound familiar? They built a new house, had a live in nanny and family help all around them. They made bottles in the blender 12 bottles at a time and her maid did all the laundry.

We talked about getting help. In the end, our house is too small and it would be a huge financial burden to pay for help. We are just a normal family, we mostly try to save what we have earned, although we are burning through $250 worth of formula each month. We don't have a new house or the latest and greatest whatevers, we chose not to. Sometimes we splurge, but mostly we are saving for rainy days, these are not them though, not yet.

I don't know how we are doing what we do. N8s family lives in Boise and Washington (come back Stephen and Annie!). My parents live in Texas and my siblings live scattered about the country. Most of the time I feel like we are thriving! How can I feel this way? I fold laundry until 11 pm. Fall asleep. Get up and do it all again the next day. Yes, I freak out. Yes, I get tunnel vision. But it clears. The clouds clear, they always will. God has brought me this far and it won't last forever. This is the family he gave me and he knows we can take care of them, or he wouldn't have given them to us. I can ask for help when I need it.

Here is what I know: I know God helps mothers, he has a vested interest in how my children turn out, he prompts and leads me through my day, I pray for him to, I cannot do what I do without him, he will not let me wreck them. I wrote before about how I pray for the wisdom to see problems afar off, well I also pray for patience, relief, ability to be kind and relax and for my children to forgive my sometimes ugly moments. I have to live by faith. I chose to live by faith. I love this life! Is that crazy?! I have never felt so happy or complete as when we found out it was triplets. I was like, 'Yah, that feels right."

After I had the triplets and all the help died down, I was talking to a friend on the phone (worst past time ever, not a phone talker me.) she asked how I was doing and I told her we were fine. There was a pause and she said, "Okay, what are you on?" All I could say was, "I am running on faith" and then I laughed because I know how goody-goody it sounds. I give it my best everyday, because I love it, because I see some of the big picture and because I don't get a second try.