Shhhh, Mommy Needs a Nap

Well, this is it, the babies birthday. The Dr is trying to give me an epidural and I can't bend forward to receive it, my tummy is too big, I hate hospital gowns, someone turn on the heat this room is freezing, Dr missed and has to do it again, he pushes me forward, I am crying, I can't bend this far forward! Am I gonna be paralyzed? Last year, while I was having babies, Hazel and CC were taking Big Sister classes at the hospital from a favorite family friend- Grammys best buddy in Provo- Polly!

The girls were never allowed in the NICU but we got a prime spot right by a window. We pulled a bench over for them to watch their new siblings.  What an incredible time for us. I think about how many blessings we have been given this year and I wonder what great things does God have in store for us that I can't even fathom right now? Because even though this year was hard, a year ago I couldn't have fathomed all the joy that has come to us. I feel like I  walk around with my little heart plump and full of joy, buttons bursting for this little rag tag gang of babies and toddlers. (Everyone has sadness's and aches in the course of a year, but I won't rain on my own parade)  Listen to me, I sound like my kids are all grown up and heading off to college. Well, they are one years old now.  Process... process.....process. Tears... joy.... I want time alone....I need a nap...I.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.